Life and Chase Intro 6 страница

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I sat in the back seat and lifted up my legs " I don't want a party this year. "

" Come on Lex why not? " Nash asked.

" I got into a fight with April and I'm not feeling it okay? "

" Fine. " he mumbled.

He drove to a Dennis's 24 hour Diner. Good luck finding cake.

I felt an arm on my shoulder and looked up at Nash's blue eyes " Try to get in the mood. "

I smiled softly " I'm sorry this is sweet of you boys. "

We walked into the deserted dinet and sat in a both. Both of them on either side of my shoulder.

" So what would you kids like? " a middle aged woman who looked extremely tired asked.

" Do you have cake? " Chase asked.

" We have pie, " she said.

" Do you have cupcakes then? " Nash asked.

" Yes. "

" Okay one chocolate cupcake, " he said.

She brought it in a few seconds and placed it in front of Nash who slid it towards me.

Chase pulled out a candle that said one and a lighter. A little fire lit up on the candle.

" One? " I raised a brow.

" Yeah because you're number one, " he said.

" And you're the bomb, " Nash added.

I smiled and blew out my candle, wishing that I never lost these two idiots in my life. I split it in thirds and gave two of it to both of them.

I chewed on mine.

" So where's my presents? " I asked.

" Tonight. " they both said.

We went home and I went to sleep for a couple hours, before I had to get ready for school.

" Happy Birthday, " my mom said overjoyed the minute I walked in for breakfast.

" Happy Birthday, Sweetheart, " my dad said " Seventeen is a big number. "

She placed a stack of pancakes with chocolate instead of maple syrup.

" Happy Birthday. " Nash ruffled my hair.

Chase pulled out the whipped cream from the fridge and sprayed it over my pancakes. I opened my mouth to thank him before he sprayed it in my mouth.

I glared at him, as it spilled down my cheek. I finished up eating and walked to Chase's car.

" I wanted to kiss that whipped cream off your mouth, " he whispered his lips grazing my ear.

I shivered and he wrapped his arm on my shoulder.

" Are you excited for my present? " he asked.

" Yes. " I smiled " Give me a hint. "

He smiled and walked to his door.

" You will have to wait and see, " he teased.

He drove then stopped the car a little far from school.

" Why did we stop? " I asked confused.

" So I could do this. " he kissed me his hand cupping my cheek and his soft lips moving with mine.

" And this. " he kissed my jaw.

" And these. " he trailed kisses down my neck.

I grabbed his hair, my heart racing.

He pulled back " We'll continue this tonight. "

We arrived at school and he stopped.

" I never got to tell you last night, since Jessica stopped me midway, but I love you Chase and sometimes it feels like a part of me always has all these years, you've taken care of me, protected me and you were always there for me when I was upset and I never realized the fact that I needed you and for that I love you, " I said.

I stroked his cheek, staring at him lovingly.

" I love you too, Lex. It makes me happy that you feel that way, you're pretty bad at sharing your feelings, " he said.

I smiled sheepishly " I'll try to declare my love for you more often. "

I got off feeling extremely happy. I walked to the washroom and bumped into someone.

" April. " I breathed.

" Don't bother. " she raised a hand.

" I'm sorry, " I whispered.

" I don't care, " she snapped " Happy fucking birthday. "

She brushed by me and walked out the door. I felt a pain in my chest April was the last person I wanted to hurt.

I sat on a bench outside with my sandwich there was no point in going inside the cafeteria, April had ignored me in all of our classes. There was no chance she'd talk to me at lunch.

" You and April still going at it, " Chase asked sitting beside me his knee brushed mine and I stared at our touching skin it was the only part of us that could touch in public.

I felt a sudden anger.

" I hate this Chase, " I said fiercely.

" Hate what? "

" This whole secrecy thing, I think we should tell Nash before he gets hurt too, " I said.

He licked his lips " Where is this coming from? "

" I think we should just tell everyone tonight. I mean it's my birthday no one will be pissed. " I said.

He shook his head " Nash will never forgive me, he'll hate me. "

" Not if he sees how happy you make me, " I touched his knee.

He shrugged his leg my hand dropping.

" I'm sorry Lex I'm not risking it, " he stood up.

I stared after his retreating form my eyes burning. I didn't understand did he expect to hide this forever, hide us forever.

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I opened Nash's front seat and hopped in.

" Hey I thought you were driving with Chase, " he said.

" We fought, " I said.

He sighed " No surprise there, even on your birthday you guys can't drop it. "

I shrugged it wasn't my fault Chase was so scared of Nash, he didn't care about the fact that I lost April thanks to him.

I dropped on my bed exhausted the minute I got home and attempted to call April again.

" Stop calling, " she yelled.

" Ap... "

She hanged up, before I could finish. I sighed and closed my eyes, falling asleep.

" Lexi. " I felt a tug on my arm.

I looked up at my mums happy eyes " Sweetie the cake is ready. "

I brushed my teeth and changed into slightly more comfortable clothes. I was glad I wasn't having a party as usual. I wasn't up for it.

I walked to the table. My parents, Chase and Nash were standing around a chocolate cake with seventeen candles. They began singing a very off tune version of Happy birthday.

I walked to the center of them and blew out my candles.

" I'll go cut it. " mom lifted the cake to the kitchen.

" Presents. " Nash pulled out a wrapped box from under the table. I laughed at the terrible wrapping.

" Hey it's whats inside that counts, " he muttered.

I tore the wrapping and peeled open the box. I stared at an Iphone it was perfect since Chase dropped my phone and made the screen crack.

I wrapped my arms around his shoulder " Thanks Nash. "

" You're welcome little sis, " he said.

My mum started handing paper plates of cake.

" I'm next, " mum said.

She handed me a my present. I tore the wrapping and stared at a book titled " Understanding the Human Mind"

" It is a fascinating read Lexi, " she gushed " I read it four times you'll love it. "

I probably wouldn't read it, but I smiled nonetheless " Thanks mom. "

My dad handed me a card. I stared at an Indigo gift card.

" So you can read books, besides your mothers recommendations, " he said.

I laughed and my mom threw him a glare.

I stared up at Chase. He usually gave me a jar of corals he found at the beach which even though it wasn't a surprise excited me nonetheless.

He dug his hand into his pocket and pulled out a pendant. I stared in amazement it was the largest one and was such a deep shade of blue. He walked behind me and brushed my hair forward and tied it behind my neck.

" You look beautiful, dear, " mum said proudly " It brings out your eyes. "

" Thank you, " I whispered.

I finished my cake and dropped it in the sink. An arm brushed mine and I looked up at Chase.

" Your room, " he whispered.

I walked back into the dining room.

" This was amazing guys, thank you. " I smiled " I'm tired so I'll crash. "

" Good night, " they chorused.

I closed my door behind me and stared at Chase sprawled on my bed.

" Come here. " he patted the spot beside him.

I walked over and curled up on his chest.

" I'm sorry I snapped early today. I promise when the time is right we'll tell him, " he said.

I toyed with my pendant.

" How did you find this? " I asked " It's big I've never seen this at the beach. "

" Yeah I found it on the other beach we went to and stuffed it in my pocket. It was luck that it was blue, " he said.

" It's beautiful. "

" Just like you. " he brushed my hair back.

He leaned forward and slowly placed his lips on my mine. He pulled me closer our chests pressed against each other his tongue moved with mine, and his hand slipped under my shirt. His finger stroking the top of my breast.

" I want you, " he said breathlessly.

I pulled him back to me and kissed him. I heard a knock and the door suddenly opened. Chase pulled back instantly and I stared at Nash's surprised face.

" What the fuck, " he growled.

" Nash I can explain, " Chase rushed.

He was at my bed in three steps his hand grabbed Chase's shirt pulling him to the ground.

" Nash stop. " I cried.

His fist rammed into his face repeatedly.

" You asshole, screwing my little sister behind my back after everything I did for you, " he yelled.

" We never had sex, " Chase groaned his nose bleeding.

" Nash. " I gripped his shirt " Leave him alone. "

He shrugged me off and connected a punch to Chase's chest that left him gasping for air.

" Betrayed me, used my sister, lied" each word was followed by a punch.

He finally stood up leaving a bloody Chase on the ground. He rammed his leg into his chest for extra measures and walked to the door.

" I want your stuff packed and you out of my fucking house. If you're here when I get back you'll regret it. "

He stormed out and I slumped on the ground beside him.

" Chase. " I touched his shoulder.

I stared at him in pity and complete anger at Nash for doing this to him.

" Baby, " I whispered.

He sat up and leaned against the wall.

" That was brutal, but not surprising, " he muttered.

" I had no idea he'd react like that, " I said.

" Yeah I did. I know him better, " he said.

I walked to my washroom and grabbed a bunch of toilet paper and wiped the blood off his face.

He stood up shakily and I helped him stand.

" I should pack. "

" You don't hav-" I started.

He shook his head " I have to. "

I followed him to the basement and stared at the mess of clothes strewn every where. There was no way we could finish all off this by the time Nash came home from where ever he went.

We started silently folding. I wanted to say something, but I had no idea where to start Nash had completely lost it I would understand if it was any other guy, but this was Chase.

I yawned exhausted, my arms were sore and hours had passed. Chase had way too much clothes I had to keep taking stretching breaks and Chase was going extremely slow considering he did get his ass kicked.

" We have to tell Nash you'll stay the night, " I said " I see no other way. "

" He'll snap and he'll probably be back any second, " he said wearily.

" Lexi, " mum yelled " Lexi. "

" Yeah, " I answered.

Why was she even awake this time? I thought her and dad went to sleep hours ago.

" Lexi. " she stomped down the stairs.

I stared at her breathless face, her eyes rimmed red.

" Nash has been in an accident, " she said gasping for air.

" What? " I breathed.

I dashed up the stairs following her.

" Mum where is he? " I asked concerned.

" Brandview Hospital, " she called.

She ran out the door.

" C'mon. " Chase grabbed my hand dragging me out the door.

I felt my heart clench in fear Nash had to be okay, he just had to I couldn't live without him.

" I'm scared, " I whispered.

" He'll be okay, " Chase reassured.

And I prayed that he was.

c h a p t e r s e v e n t e e n

I walked into the emergency room, my eyes blurry.

" It'll be okay? " Chase whispered.

He had been saying that the entire car ride, but I wasn't going to believe it until I saw Nash.

My mum and dad stood up and my mom wrapped her arms around me her eyes blood shot.

" How is he? " I asked.

" He's in the operation room, " my dad said.

I sat down wearily and Chase sat beside me. He wrapped his hand around mine.

I rubbed my eyes that kept filling up with tears. This was all my fault I should have told Nash the truth. He wouldn't have stormed out if he knew. My brother was fighting for his life on that table and it was all my fault.

I felt the hot tears fall down my face in a rush and could taste the salty tears on my lips.

" Lexi he'll be fine, " Chase whispered " I promise. "

" How can you promise that? " I snapped, " How can you possibly know? "

He opened his mouth then clamped it shut. His eyes filled with concern and worry.

I stood up and started pacing.

" Jessica, " my mom said.

I never turned around to look. I felt an endless pit in my stomach. How could I do this to him? It was all my fault I should have just been honest with him.

A surgeon walked out. We all stood up.

" Can I see him? " I asked the minute he was within distance.

He took off his hat and looked down. I felt my heart stop beating in my chest and that pit in my stomach deepen.

" I'm sorry, but we couldn't save him, " he said sadly, " He damaged all his internal organs and lost too much blood in the crash. "

I heard my mum let out a ear shattering wail and my dad catch her before she crumbled. I felt the hair stand on my arms and my breath cease in my chest.

I pushed by the surgeon I had to see him it wasn't true.

I stepped into the room and stared at his deathly, pale face, his eyes closed and a blanket covered the rest of his body.

" Nash, " I whispered.

I stood beside him and shook his shoulder " Nash, wake up. "

He didn't respond " Nash it's Lexi please wake up. "

A sob escaped my throat I shook his shoulder hardly.

" Wake up, " I said.

I repeated it.

" Lexi" Chase nudged my shoulder.

" Don't touch me, " I yelled.

" Wake up Nash, " I whispered.

" Lexi that's enough, " he said.

" He's go. gone" Chase stuttered.

He wasn't he couldn't be.

I beat his chest urging him to wake up in an endless loop.

I slumped to the ground my knees caving under me.

" It ca. ca. can't be, " I stammered.

" I'm so sorry Lexi, " Chase said tears falling down his cheek.

I felt my stomach churn and began throwing up on the floor Chase held my hair.

My head began to spin and my vision blurred that was when everything went black.

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I stared at all the people, felt them touch my shoulder, share their condolences, my mothers grasp on my hand tightened like she was scared of losing me too.

The funeral passed my parents were kind enough not to let me speak. I didn't think it was possible to utter anything.

I felt someone wrap their arms around and felt Jessica's blonde hair brush my cheek.

" I'm so sorry Lexi, " she said.

I stared ahead numbly, everything felt surreal like I nightmare I couldn't wake up from.

All the days after that blended together in a ball of nothing. School was torture, April tried to reach out to me, but I was no longer interested in friendship or anything.

The house felt like a giant vaccum had sucked out all the happiness and memories that were ever contained in this house.

I walked to his room and slowly opened his bedroom door, scared to disturb anything.

Everything remained the same, untouched. His clothes strewn about, his weights on the floor. I felt my eyes burn, it was like he never left.

I sat on his bed and touched a cool metal, I picked up an Iphone case and flipped it around.

It was carved in italics Nash the worlds most awesome brother.

I felt the tears slip down my cheek. This was why he came to my room on my birthday, to give me the second half of my present.

I stared at the wet drops that rested on the case. I pulled out my phone and slipped it on. It was true he was the most awesome brother, always protecting me, taking the blame when I did something wrong, trying to always make time for us so we never grew apart.

I saw a flash back of all the memories we had together Nash taking the blame when I broke my mum's favorite vase, Nash beating up Billy Willer in fourth grade when he said my hair was ugly, Nash who pulled pranks on me and teased me, but never forgot to tell me how much he loved me, Nash pushing me on the swing and telling me that I could fly, but how was I supposed to fly now when I lost my wings.

It all felt like a lifetime ago.

I suddenly found it hard to breathe.

I dashed out of his room and grabbed the house keys. I locked the door and pulled a flower out of our front garden. I walked the distance to the cemetery and found his grave.

" Hi Nash" I sat on the ground, feeling the dirt seep under my jeans I crossed my legs.

" I'm sorry I never skipped school yesterday to be with you, the Principal called and said I was failing nearly all my classes, " I said, " but I can't help but find school extremely insignificant in the grand scheme of life. "

" I miss you Nash, it's not the same without you, " I whispered, " I miss my big brother who is going to protect me now that you're gone? "

" I will. "

I looked up at Chase's handsome face, his eyebrows creased in concern.

" Go away, " I snapped.

I hadn't spoken to him in days.

He walked towards me and crouched in front of me " Lexi, let me protect you and take care of you. "

I turned away from him and stared forward.

" Chase we're over, " I whispered fiercely, " I thought you got the message. "

" Don't say that Lex. You just need space. " he nodded.

" No I can't be with anyone, " I said frustrated.

" Then I'll stay as your friend, " he said.

I wanted to be alone, I didn't want him or April or anyone.

Just me and my lost moments with Nash.

" This is all your fault. " I turned on him " I told you we should have told him earlier if we did, none of this... "

" Do you think Nash would want to see you like this? " he asked suddenly, " Blaming yourself, pushing me away, letting life pass. "

I ignored him hoping he would just go away.

" I lost him too, " he whispered, " and you barely asked me how I'm doing. "

I looked up at him. His grey eyes were filled with liquid and he was clutching his hair.

" I feel like I'm losing myself, like I lost a part of myself and I don't know how to find it. Like nothing makes sense anymore or matters, " he said frustrated, " and I'm trying to figure out how to fix it, but it keeps breaking under my grasp. "

" I needed you, " he rubbed his eyes, pulling back his wet fists.

" I need you, " he repeated in present tense, staring at me under his wet lashes.

" You're all I have left. " he whispered.

" I'm sorry I can't be the person you want, " I said harshly.

" Please Lex, don't leave me. " he whispered.

I looked away at the fading sun. The sun rose and set in a never ending motion, yet our lives changed so drastically. Maybe if things were fixed I could still have my brother, maybe I could still be with Chase, that I could have both of them. But that wasn't how life worked and right now all I needed was space.

I stood up and brushed the dirt of my back.

" I love you, " he said shakily.

I walked away, my feet taking me home. I could feel the sun on my face, but not the warmth.

The End

so that is the end of the book I attempted to rewrite this book but lack of time had me posting back the original. Sorry for the end that's life I guess, this is a reality check to anyone who believes that accidents in book mean survival, because in life it doesn't and for those who think couples last forever they don't. It's a fact of life one that sucks but exists none the less.

Besides that I love you guys and thank you for reading: )

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