PART THREE 5 страница

Tietjens muttered: “Good God! ” beneath his breath. He said:

“The captain has had another nervous breakdown… The orderly accepted the phrase with gratitude. That was it. A nervous breakdown. They say he had been very queer at mess. About divorce. Or the captain's uncle. A barrow-night! Tietjens said: “Yes, yes. ” He half rose in his chair and looked at Sylvia. She exclaimed painfully:

“You can't go. I insist that you can't go. ” He sank down again and muttered wearily that it was very worrying. He had been put in charge of this officer by General Campion. He ought not to have left the camp at all perhaps. But McKechnie had seemed better. A great deal of the calmness of her insolence had left her. She had expected to have the whole night in which luxuriously to torment the lump opposite her. To torment and to allure him. She said:

“You have settlements to come to now and here that will affect your whole life. Our whole lives! You propose to abandon them because a miserable little nephew of your miserable little friend…” She added in French: “Even as it is you cannot pay attention to these serious matters, because of these childish pre-occupations of yours. That is to be intolerably insulting to me! ” She was breathless.

Tietjens asked the orderly where Captain McKechnie was now. The orderly said he had left the camp. The colonel of the depot had sent a couple of officers as a search-party. Tietjens told the orderly to go and find a taxi. He could have a ride himself up to camp. The orderly said taxis would not be running on account of the air-raid. Could he order the G. M. P. to requisition one on urgent military service? The exhilarated air-gun pooped off thereupon three times from the garden. For the next hour it sent off every two or three minutes. Tietjens said: “Yes! Yes! ” to the orderly. The noises of the air raid became more formidable. A blue express letter of French civilian make was handed to Tietjens. It was from the duchess to inform him that coal for the use of greenhouses was forbidden by the French Government. She did not need to say that she relied on his honour to ensure her receiving her coal through the British military authorities, and she asked for an immediate reply. Tietjens expressed real annoyance while he read this. Distracted by the noise, Sylvia cried out that the letter must be from Valentine Wannop in Rouen. Did not the girl intend to let him have an hour in which to settle the whole business of his life? Tietjens moved to the chair next to hers. He handed her the duchess's letter.

He began a long, slow, serious explanation with a long, slow, serious apology. He said he regretted very much that when she should have taken the trouble to come so far in order to do him the honour to consult him about a matter which she would have been perfectly at liberty to settle for herself, the extremely serious military position should render him so liable to interruption. As far as he was concerned Groby was entirely at her disposal with all that it contained. And of course a sufficient income for the upkeep.

She exclaimed in an access of sudden and complete despair:

“That means that you do not intend to live there. ” He said that that must settle itself later. The war would no doubt last a good deal longer. While it lasted there could be no question of his coming back. She said that that meant that he intended to get killed. She warned him that, if he got killed, she would cut down the great cedar at the south-west corner of Groby. It kept all the light out of the principal drawing-room and the bedrooms above it… He winced: he certainly winced at that. She regretted that she had said it. It was along other lines that she desired to make him wince.

He said that, apart from his having no intention of getting himself killed, the matter was absolutely out of his hands. He had to go where he was ordered to go and do what he was told to do.

She exclaimed:

“You! You! Isn't it ignoble. That you should be at the beck and call of these ignoramuses. You! ”

He went on explaining seriously that he was in no great danger—in no danger at all unless he was sent back to his battalion. And he was not likely to be sent back to his battalion unless he disgraced himself or showed himself negligent where he was. That was unlikely. Besides his category was so low that he was not eligible for his battalion, which, of course, was in the line. She ought to understand that everyone that she saw employed there was physically unfit for the line. She said:

“That's why they're such an awful lot… It is not to this place that one should come to look for a presentable man… Diogenes with his lantern was nothing to it. ”

He said:

“There's that way of looking at it… It is quite true that most of… let's say your friends… were killed off during the early days, or if they're still going they're in more active employments. ” What she called presentableness was very largely a matter of physical fitness… The horse, for instance, that he rode was rather a crock… But though it was German and not thoroughbred it contrived to be up to his weight… Her friends, more or less, of before the war were professional soldiers or of the type. Well, they were gone: dead or snowed under. But on the other hand, this vast town full of crocks did keep the thing going, if it could be made to go. It was not they that hindered the show: if it was hindered, that was done by her much less presentable friends, the ministry who, if they were professionals at all, were professional boodlers.

She exclaimed with bitterness:

“Then why didn't you stay at home to check them, if they are boodlers? ” She added that the only people at home who kept social matters going at all with any life were precisely the more successful political professionals. When you were with them you would not know there was any war. And wasn't that what was wanted? Was the whole of life to be given up to ignoble horseplay? … She spoke with increased rancour because of the increasing thump and rumble of the air-raid… Of course the politicians were ignoble beings that, before the war, you would not have thought of having in your house… But whose fault was that, if not that of the better classes, who had gone away leaving England a dreary wilderness of fellows without consciences or traditions or manners? And she added some details of the habits at a country house of a member of the Government whom she disliked. “And, ” she finished up, “it's your fault. Why aren't you Lord Chancellor, or Chancellor of the Exchequer, instead of whoever is, for I am sure I don't know? You could have been, with your abilities and your interests. Then things would have been efficiently and honestly conducted. If your brother Mark, with not a tithe of your abilities, can be a permanent head of a department, what could you not have risen to with your gifts, and your influence… and your integrity? ” And she ended up: “Oh, Christopher! ” on almost a sob.

Ex-Sergeant-Major Cowley, who had come back from the telephone, and during an interval in the thunderings, had heard some of Sylvia's light cast on the habits of members of the home Government, so that his jaw had really hung down, now, in another interval, exclaimed:

“Hear, hear! Madam! … There is nothing the captain might not have risen to… He is doing the work of a brigadier now on the pay of an acting captain… And the treatment he gets is scandalous… Well, the treatment we all get is scandalous, tricked and defrauded as we are all at every turn… And look at this new start with the draft…” They had ordered the draft to be ready and countermanded it, and ordered it to be ready and countermanded it, until no one knew whether he stood on is 'ed or is 'eels… It was to have gone off last night: when they'd 'ad it marched down to the station they 'ad it marched back and told them all it would not be wanted for six weeks… Now it was to be got ready to go before daylight to-morrow morning in motor-lorries to the rail Ondekoeter way, the rail here 'aving been sabotaged! … Before daylight so that the enemy aeroplanes should not see it on the road… Wasn't that a thing to break the 'arts of men and horderly rooms? It was outrageous. Did they suppose the 'Uns did things like that?

He broke off to say with husky enthusiasm of affection to Tietjens: “Look 'ere, old… I mean, sir… There's no way of getting hold of an officer to march the draft. Them as are eligible gets to 'ear of what drafts is going and they've all bolted into their burries. Not a man of 'em will be back in camp before five to-morrow morning. Not when they 'ears there's a draft to go at four of mornings like this… Now…” His voice became husky with emotion as he offered to take the draft hisself to oblige Captain Tietjens. And the captain knew he could get a draft off pretty near as good as himself: or very near. As for the draft-conducting major he lived in that hotel and he, Cowley, 'ad seen 'im. No four in the morning for 'im. He was going to motor to Ondekoeter Station about seven. So there was no sense in getting the draft off before five, and it was still dark then: too dark for the 'Un planes to see what was moving. He'd be glad if the captain would be up at the camp by five to take a final look and to sign any papers that only the commanding officer could sign. But he knew the captain had had no sleep the night before because of his, Cowley's, infirmity, mostly, so he couldn't do less than give up a day and a half of his leave to taking the draft. Besides, he was going home for the duration and he would not mind getting a look at the old places they'd seen in 'fourteen, for the last time as a Cook's tourist…

Tietjens, who was looking noticeably white, said:

“Do you remember 0 Nine Morgan at Noircourt? ”

Cowley said:

“No… Was 'e there? In your company, I suppose? … The man you mean that was killed yesterday. Died in your arms owing to my oversight. I ought to have been there. ” He said to Sylvia with the gloating idea N. C. O. 's had that wives liked to hear of their husband's near escapes: “Killed within a foot of the captain, 'e was. An 'orrible shock it must 'ave been for the captain. ” A horrible mess… The captain held him in his arms while he died… As if he'd been a baby. Wonderful tender, the captain was! Well, you're apt to be when it's one of your own men… No rank then! “Do you know the only time the King must salute a private soldier and the private takes no notice? … When 'e's dead…”

Both Sylvia and Tietjens were silent—and silvery white in the greenish light from the lamp. Tietjens indeed had shut his eyes. The old N. C. O. went on rejoicing to have the floor to himself. He had got on his feet preparatory to going up to camp, and he swayed a little…

“No, ” he said and he waved his cigar gloriously. “I don't remember 0 Nine Morgan at Noircourt… But I remember…”

Tietjens, with his eyes still shut, said:

“I only thought he might have been a man…”

“No, ” the old fellow went on imperiously, “I don't remember 'im… But, Lord, I remember what happened to you! ” He looked down gloriously upon Sylvia: “The captain caught 'is foot in… You'd never believe what 'e caught 'is foot in! Never! … A pretty quiet affair it was, with a bit of moonlight… Nothing much in the way of artillery… Perhaps we surprised the 'Uns proper, perhaps they were wanting to give up their front-line trenches for a purpose… There was next to no one in 'em… I know it made me nervous… My heart was fair in my boots, because there was so little doing! … It was when there was little doing that the 'Uns could be expected to do their worst… Of course there was some machine-gunning… There was one in particular away to the right of us… And the moon, it was shining in the early morning. Wonderful peaceful. And a little mist… And frozen hard… Hard as you wouldn't believe… Enough to make the shells dangerous. ”

Sylvia said:

“It's not always mud, then? ” and Tietjens, to her: “He'll stop if you don't like it. ” She said monotonously: “No… I want to hear. ”

Cowley drew himself up for his considerable effect:

“Mud! ” he said. “Not then… Not by half… I tell you, ma'am, we trod on the frozen faces of dead Germans as we doubled… A terrible lot of Germans we'd killed a day or so before… That was no doubt the reason they give up the trenches so easy: difficult to attack from, they was… Anyhow, they left the dead for us to bury, knowing probably they were going, with a better 'eart! … But it fair put the wind up me anyhow to think of what their counter-attack was going to be… The counter-attack is always ten times as bad as the preliminary resistance. They 'as you with the rear of their trenches—the parados, we call it—as your front to boot. So I was precious glad when the moppers-up and supports come and went through us… Laughing, they was… Wiltshires… My missus comes from that country… Mrs Cowley, I mean… So I'd seen the captain go down earlier on and I'd said: 'There's another of the best stopped one…'” He dropped his voice a little: he was one of the noted yarners of the regiment: “Caught 'is foot, 'e 'ad, between two 'ands… Sticking up out of the frozen ground… As it might be in prayer… Like this! ” He elevated his two hands, the cigar between the fingers, the wrists close together and the fingers slightly curled inwards: “Sticking up in the moonlight… Poor devil! ”

Tietjens said:

“I thought perhaps it was 0 Nine Morgan I saw that night… Naturally I looked dead… I hadn't a breath in my body… And I saw a Tommy put his rifle to his pal's upper arm and fire… As I lay on the ground…”

Cowley said:

“Ah, you saw that… I heard the men talking of it… But they naturally did not say who and where! ”

Tietjens said with a negligence that did not ring true:

“The wounded man's name was Stilicho… A queer name… I suppose it's Cornish… It was B Company in front of us. ”

“You didn't bring 'em to a court martial? ” Cowley asked. Tietjens said: No. He could not be quite certain. Though he was certain. But he had been worrying about a private matter. He had been worrying about it while he lay on the ground and that rather obscured his sense of what he saw. Besides, he said faintly, an officer must use his judgement. He had judged it better in this case not to have seen the… His voice had nearly faded away: it was clear to Sylvia that he was coming to a climax of some mental torture. Suddenly he exclaimed to Cowley:

“Supposing I let him off one life to get him killed two years after. My God! That would be too beastly! ”

Cowley snuffled in Tietjens' ear something that Sylvia did not catch—consolatory and affectionate. That intimacy was more than she could bear. She adopted her most negligent tone to ask:

“I suppose the one man had been trifling with the other's girl. Or wife! ”

Cowley exploded: “God bless you, no! They'd agreed upon it between them. To get one of them sent 'ome and the other, at any rate, out of that 'ell, leading him back to the dressing-station. ” She said:

“You mean to say that a man would do that, to get out of it? …”

Cowley said:

“God bless you, ma'am, with the 'ell the Tommies 'as of it… For it's in the line that the differences between the Other Ranks' life and the officers' comes in… I tell you, ma'am, old soldier as I am, and I've been in seven wars one with another… there were times in this war when I could have shrieked, holding my right hand down…”

He paused and said: “It was my idea… And it's been a good many others', that if I 'eld my 'and up over the parapet with perhaps my hat on it, in two minutes there would be a German sharpshooter's bullet through it. And then me for Blighty, as the soldiers say… And if that could happen to me, a regimental sergeant-major, with twenty-three years in the service…”

The bright orderly came in, said he had found a taxi, and melted into the dimness.

“A man, ” the sergeant-major said, “would take the risk of being shot for wounding his pal… They get to love their pals, passing the love of women…” Sylvia exclaimed: “Oh! ” as if at a pang of toothache. “They do, ma'am, ” he said, “it's downright touching…”

He was by now very unsteady as he stood, but his voice was quite clear. That was the way it took him. He said to Tietjens:

“It's queer, what you say about home worries taking up your mind… I remember in the Afghan campaign, when we were in the devil of a hot corner, I got a letter from my wife, Mrs Cowley, to say that our Winnie had the measles… And there was only one difference between me and Mrs Cowley: I said that a child must have flannel next its skin, and she said flannelette was good enough. Wiltshire doesn't hold by wool as Lincolnshire does. Long fleeces the Lincolnshire sheep have… And… dodging the Afghan bullets all day among the boulders as we was, all I could think of… For you know, ma'am, being a mother yourself, that the great thing with measles is to keep a child warm… I kep' saying to myself—'arf crying I was—'If she only keeps wool next Winnie's skin! If she only keeps wool next Winnie's skin! '… But you know that, being a mother yourself. I've seen your son's photo on the captain's dressing-table. Michael, 'is name is… So you see, the captain doesn't forget you and 'im. ”

Sylvia said in a clear voice:

“Perhaps you would not go on! ”

Distracted as she was by the anti-air-gun in the garden, though it was on the other side of the hotel and permitted you to get in a sentence or two before splitting your head with a couple of irregular explosions, she was still more distracted by a sudden vision—a remembrance of Christopher's face when their boy had had a temperature of 105° with the measles, up at his sister's house in Yorkshire. He had taken the responsibility, which the village doctor would not face, of himself placing the child in a bath full of split ice… She saw him bending, expressionless in the strong lamp-light, with the child in his clumsy arms over the glittering, rubbled surface of the bath… He was just as expressionless then as now… He reminded her now of how he had been then: some strain in the lines of the face perhaps that she could not analyse… Rather as if he had a cold in the head—a little suffocating, with suppressing his emotions, of course: his eyes looking at nothing. You would not have said that he even saw the child—heir to Groby and all that! … Something had said to her, just in between two crashes of the gun: “It's his own child. He went as you might say down to hell to bring it back to life…” She knew it was Father Consett saying that. She knew it was true: Christopher had been down to hell to bring the child back… Fancy facing its pain in that dreadful bath! … The thermometer had dropped, running down under their eyes… Christopher had said: “A good heart, he's got! A good plucked one! ” and then held his breath, watching the thin filament of bright mercury drop to normal… She said now, between her teeth: “The child is his property as much as the damned estate… Well, I've got them both…”

But it wasn't at this juncture that she wanted him tortured over that. So, when the second gun had done its crash, she had said to the bibulous old man:

“I wish you would not go on! ” And Christopher had been prompt to the rescue of the convenances with:

“Mrs Tietjens does not see eye to eye with us in some matters! ”

She said to herself: “Eye to eye! My God! …” The whole of this affair, the more she saw of it, overwhelmed her with a sense of hatred… And of depression! … She saw Christopher buried in this welter of fools, playing a schoolboy's game of make-believe. But of a make-believe that was infinitely formidable and infinitely sinister… The crashing of the gun and of all the instruments for making noise seemed to her so atrocious and odious because they were, for her, the silly pomp of a schoolboy-man's game… Campion, or some similar schoolboy, said: “Hullo! Some German airplanes about… That lets us out on the air-gun! Let's have some pops! …” As they fire guns in the park on the King's birthday. It was sheer insolence to have a gun in the garden of an hotel where people of quality might be sleeping or wishing to converse!

At home she had been able to sustain the conviction that it was such a game… Anywhere: at the house of a minister of the Crown, at dinner, she had only to say: “Do let us leave off talking of these odious things…” And immediately there would be ten or a dozen voices, the minister's included, to agree with Mrs Tietjens of Groby that they had altogether too much of it…

But here! … She seemed to be in the very belly of the ugly affair… It moved and moved, under your eyes dissolving, yet always there. As if you should try to follow one diamond of pattern in the coil of an immense snake that was in irrevocable motion… It gave her a sense of despair: the engrossment of Tietjens, in common with the engrossment of this disreputable toper. She had never seen Tietjens put his head together with any soul before: he was the lonely buffalo… Now 1 Anyone: any fatuous staff-officer, whom at home he would never so much as have spoken to: any trustworthy beer-sodden sergeant, any street urchin dressed up as orderly… They had only to appear and all his mind went into a close-headed conference over some ignoble point in the child's game: the laundry, the chiropody, the religions, the bastards… of millions of the indistinguishable… Or their deaths as well! But, in heaven's name what hypocrisy, or what inconceivable chicken-heartedness was this? They promoted this beanfeast of carnage for their own ends: they caused the deaths of men in inconceivable holocausts of pain and terror. Then they had crises of agony over the death of one single man. For it was plain to her that Tietjens was in the middle of a full nervous breakdown. Over one man's death! She had never seen him so suffer; she had never seen him so appeal for sympathy: him, a cold fiend of reticence! Yet he was now in an agony! Now! … And she began to have a sense of the infinitely spreading welter of pain, going away to an eternal horizon of night…’Ell for the Other Ranks! Apparently it was hell for the officers as well.

The real compassion in the voice of that snuffling, half-drunken old man had given her a sense of that enormous wickedness… These horrors, these infinities of pain, this atrocious condition of the world had been brought about in order that men should indulge themselves in orgies of promiscuity… That in the end was at the bottom of male honour, of male virtue, observance of treaties, upholding of the flag… An immense warlock's carnival of appetites, lusts, ebrieties… And once set in motion there was no stopping it… This state of things would never cease… Because once they had tasted of the joy—the blood—of this game, who would let it end? … These men talked of these things that occupied them there with the lust of men telling dirty stories in smoking-rooms… That was the only parallel!

There was no stopping it, any more than there was any stopping the by now all but intoxicated ex-sergeant major. He was off! With, as might be expected, advice to a young couple with differences of opinion! The wine had made him bold!

In the depth of her pictures of these horrors, snatches of his wisdom penetrated to her intelligence… Queer snatches… She was getting it certainly in the neck! … Someone, to add to the noise, had started some mechanical musical instrument in an adjacent hall.

“Corn an' lasses

Served by Ras'us! ”

a throaty voice proclaimed,

“I'd be tickled to death to know that I could go

And stay right there…”

The ex-sergeant-major was adding to her knowledge the odd detail that when he, Sergeant-Major Cowley, went to the wars—seven of them—his missus, Mrs Cowley, spent the first three days and nights unpicking and re-hemstitching every sheet and pillow-slip in the 'ouse. To keep 'erself f'm thinking… This was apparently meant as a reproof or an exhortation to her, Sylvia Tietjens… Well, he was all right! Of the same class as Father Consett, and with the same sort of wisdom.

The gramophone bowled: a new note of rumbling added itself to the exterior tumult and continued through six mitigated thumps of the gun in the garden… In the next interval, Cowley was in the midst of a valedictory address to her. He was asking her to remember that the captain had had a sleepless night the night before.

There occurred to her irreverent mind a sentence of one of the Duchess of Marlborough's letters to Queen Anne. The duchess had visited the general during one of his campaigns in Flanders. “My Lord, ” she wrote, “did me the honour three times in his boots! ”… The sort of thing she would remember… She would—she would—have tried it on the sergeant-major, just to see Tietjens' face, for the sergeant-major would not have understood… And who cared if he did! … He was bibulously skirting round the same idea…

But the tumult increased to an incredible volume: even the thrillings of the near-by gramophone of two hundred horse-power, or whatever it was, became mere shimmerings of a gold thread in a drab fabric of sound. She screamed blasphemies that she was hardly aware of knowing. She had to scream against the noise: she was no more responsible for the blasphemy than if she had lost her identity under an anaesthetic. She had lost her identity… She was one of this crowd!

The general woke in his chair and gazed malevolently at their group as if they alone were responsible for the noise. It dropped. Dead! You only knew it, because you caught the tail end of a belated woman's scream from the hall and the general shouting: “For God's sake don't start that damned gramophone again! ” In the blessed silence, after preliminary wheezes and guitar noises, an astonishing voice burst out:

“Less than the dust…

Before thy char…”

And then, stopping after a murmur of voices, began:

“Pale hands I loved…”

The general sprang from his chair and rushed to the hall… He came back crestfallenly.

“It's some damned civilian big-wig… A novelist, they say… I can't stop him…” He added with disgust: “The hall's full of young beasts and harlots… Dancing! ”… The melody had indeed, after a buzz, changed to a languorous and interrupted variation of a waltz. “Dancing in the dark! ” the general said with enhanced disgust…”And the Germans may be here at any moment… If they knew what I know! …”

Sylvia called across to him:

“Wouldn't it be fun to see the blue uniform with the silver buttons again and some decently set-up men? …”

The general shouted:

“I'd be glad to see them… I'm sick to death of these…”

Tietjens took up something he had been saying to Cowley: what it was Sylvia did not hear, but Cowley answered, still droning on with an idea Sylvia thought they had got past:

“I remember when I was sergeant in Quetta, I detailed a man—called Herring—for watering the company horses, after he begged off it because he had a fear of horses… A horse got him down in the river and drowned 'im… Fell with him and put its foot on his face… A fair sight he was… It wasn't any good my saying anything about military exigencies… Fair put me off my feed, it did… Cost me a fortune in Epsom salts…”

Sylvia was about to scream out that if Tietjens did not like men being killed it ought to sober him in his war-lust, but Cowley continued meditatively:

“Epsom salts they say is the cure for it… For seeing your dead… And of course you should keep off women for a fortnight… I know I did. Kept seeing Herring's face with the hoof-mark. And… there was a piece: a decent bit of goods in what we called the Government Compound…”

He suddenly exclaimed:

“Saving your… Ma'am, I'm…” He stuck the stump of the cigar into his teeth and began assuring Tietjens that he could be trusted with the draft next morning, if only Tietjens would put him into the taxi.

He went away, leaning on Tietjens' arm, his legs at an angle of sixty degrees with the carpet…

“He can't…” Sylvia said to herself, “he can't, not… If he's a gentleman… After all that old fellow's hints… He'd be a damn coward if he kept off… For a fortnight… And who else is there not a public…” She said: “0 God! …”

The old general, lying in his chair, turned his face aside to say:

“I wouldn't, madam, not if I were you, talk about the blue uniform with silver buttons here… We, of course, understand…”

She said: “You see… even that extinct volcano… He's undressing me with his eyes full of blood veins… Then why can't he? …”

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