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The ex-sergeant-major looked at her gravely:

“Ma'am, ” he said, “we couldn't say exactly that of the captain… For I fancy it was said of our Redeemer… But we 'ave said that if ever there was a poor bloke the captain could 'elp, 'elp 'im 'e would… Yet the unit was always getting 'ellish strafe from headquarters…”

Suddenly Sylvia began to laugh… As she began to laugh she had remembered… The alabaster image in the nun's chapel at Birkenhead the vision of which had just presented itself to her, had been the recumbent tomb of an honourable Mrs Tremayne-Warlock… She was said to have sinned in her youth… And her husband had never forgiven her… That was what the nuns said… She said aloud:

“A sign…” Then to herself: “Blessed Mary! … You've given it me in the neck… Yet you could not name a father for your child, and I can name two… I'm going mad… Both I and he are going to go mad…”

She thought of dashing an enormous patch of red upon either cheek. Then she thought it would be rather melodramatic…

She made in the smoking-room, whilst she was waiting for both Tietjens and Cowley to come back from the telephone, another pact… This time with Father Consett in heaven! She was fairly sure that Father Consett—and quite possibly other of the heavenly powers—wanted Christopher not to be worried, so that he could get on with the war—or because he was a good sort of dullish man such as the heavenly authorities are apt to like… Something like that…

She was by that time fairly calm again. You cannot keep up fits of emotion by the hour: at any rate, with her, the fits of emotion were periodical and unexpected, though her colder passion remained always the same… Thus, when Christopher had come into Lady Sachse's that afternoon, she had been perfectly calm. He had mooned through a number of officers, both French and English, in a great octagonal, bluish salon where Lady Sachse gave her teas, and had come to her side with just a nod—the merest inflexion of the head! … Perowne had melted away somewhere behind the disagreeable duchess. The general, very splendid and white-headed and scarlet-tipped and gilt, had also borne down upon her at that… At the sight of Perowne with her he had been sniffing and snorting whilst he talked to the young nobleman—a dark fellow in blue with a new belt who seemed just a shade too theatrical, he being chauffeur to a marshal of France and first cousin and nearest relative, except for parents and grandparents, of the prospective bride…

The general had told her that he was running the show pretty strong on purpose because he thought it might do something to cement the Entente Cordiale. But it did not seem to be doing it. The French—officers, soldiers and women—kept pretty well all on the one side of the room—the English on the other. The French were as a rule more gloomy than men and women are expected to be. A marquis of sorts—she understood that these were all Bonapartist nobility—having been introduced to her had distinguished himself no more than by saying that, for his part, he thought the duchess was right, and by saying that to Perowne who, knowing no French, had choked exactly as if his tongue had suddenly got too big for his mouth…

She had not heard what the duchess—a very disagreeable duchess who sat on a sofa and appeared savagely careworn—had been saying, so that she had inclined herself, in the courtly manner that at school she had been taught to reserve for the French legitimist nobility, but that she thought she might expend upon a rather state function even for the Bonapartists, and had replied that without the least doubt the duchess had the right of the matter… The marquis had given her from dark eyes one long glance, and she had returned it with a long cold glance that certainly told him she was meat for his masters. It extinguished him…

Tietjens had staged his meeting with herself remarkably well. It was the sort of lymphatic thing he could do, so that, for the fifth of a minute, she wondered if he had any feelings or emotions at all. But she knew that he had… The general, at any rate, bearing down upon them with satisfaction, had remarked:

“Ah, I see you've seen each other before to-day… I thought perhaps you wouldn't have found time before, Tietjens… Your draft must be a great nuisance…”

Tietjens said without expression:

“Yes, we have seen each other before… I made time to call at Sylvia's hotel, sir. ”

It was at Tietjens' terrifying expressionlessness, at that completely being up to a situation, that the first wave of emotion had come over her… For, till that very moment, she had been merely sardonically making the constatation that there was not a single presentable man in the room… There was not even one that you could call a gentleman… for you cannot size up the French… ever! … But, suddenly, she was despairing! … How, she said to herself, could she ever move, put emotion into, this lump! It was like trying to move an immense mattress filled with feathers. You pulled at one end, but the whole mass sagged down and remained immobile until you seemed to have no strength at all… Until virtue went out from you…

It was as if he had the evil eye; or some special protector. He was so appallingly competent, so appallingly always in the centre of his own picture.

The general said, rather joyfully:

“Then you can spare a minute, Tietjens, to talk to the duchess! About coal! … For goodness' sake, man, save the situation! I'm worn out…”

Sylvia bit the inside of her lower lip—she never bit her lip itself! —to keep herself from exclaiming aloud. It was just exactly what should not happen to Tietjens at that juncture… She heard the general explaining to her, in his courtly manner, that the duchess was holding up the whole ceremony because of the price of coal. The general loved her desperately. Her, Sylvia! In quite a proper manner for an elderly general… But he would go to no small extremes in her interests! So would his sister!

She looked hard at the room to get her senses into order again. She said:

“It's like a Hogarth picture…”

The undissolvable air of the eighteenth century that the French contrive to retain in all their effects kept the scene singularly together. On a sofa sat the duchess, relatives leaning over her. She was a duchess with one of those impossible names: Beauchain-Radigutz or something like it. The bluish room was octagonal and vaulted, up to a rosette in the centre of the ceiling. English officers and V. A. D. 's of some evident presence opened out to the left, French military and very black-clothed women of all ages, but all apparently widows, opened out to the right, as if the duchess shone down a sea at sunset. Beside her on the sofa you did not see Lady Sachse: leaning over her you did not see the prospective bride. This stoutish, unpresentable, coldly venomous woman, in black clothes so shabby that they might have been grey tweed, extinguished other personalities as the sun conceals planets. A fattish, brilliantined personality, in mufti, with a scarlet rosette, stood sideways to the duchess's right, his hands extended forward as if in an invitation to a dance; an extremely squat lady, also apparently a widow, extended, on the left of the duchess, both her black-gloved hands, as if she too were giving an invitation to the dance…

The general, with Sylvia beside him, stood glorious in the centre of the clearing that led to the open doorway of a much smaller room. Through the doorway you could see a table with a white damask cloth; a silver-gilt inkpot, fretted, like a porcupine with pens, a fat, flat leather case for the transportation of documents and two notaries: one in black, fat, and bald-headed; one in blue uniform, with a shining monocle, and a brown moustache that he continued to twirl…

Looking round that scene Sylvia's humour calmed her and she heard the general say:

“She's supposed to walk on my arm to that table and sign the settlement… We're supposed to be the first to sign it together… But she won't. Because of the price of coal. It appears that she has hothouses in miles. And she thinks the English have put up the price of coal as if… damn it you'd think we did it just to keep her hothouse stoves out. ”

The duchess had delivered, apparently, a vindictive, cold, calm, and uninterruptible oration on the wickedness of her country's allies as people who should have allowed France to be devastated and the flower of her youth slain in order that they might put up the price of a comestible that was absolutely needed in her life. There was no arguing with her. There was no British soul there who both knew anything about economics and spoke French. And there she sat, apparently immovable. She did not refuse to sign the marriage contract. She just made no motion to go to it and, apparently, the resulting marriage would be illegal if that document were brought to her!

The general said:

“Now, what the deuce will Christopher find to say to her? He'll find something because he could talk the hind legs off anything. But what the deuce will it be? …”

It almost broke Sylvia's heart to see how exactly Christopher did the right thing. He walked up that path to the sun and made in front of the duchess a little awkward nick with his head and shoulders that was rather more like a curtsy than a bow. It appeared that he knew the duchess quite well… as he knew everybody in the world quite well. He smiled at her and then became just suitably grave. Then he began to speak an admirable, very old-fashioned French with an atrocious English accent. Sylvia had no idea that he knew a word of the language—that she herself knew very well indeed. She said to herself that upon her word it was like hearing Chateaubriand talk—if Chateaubriand had been brought up in an English hunting country… Of course Christopher would cultivate an English accent: to show that he was an English country gentleman. And he would speak correctly—to show that an English Tory can do anything in the world if he wants to…

The British faces in the room looked blank: the French faces turned electrically upon him. Sylvia said:

“Who would have thought…? ” The duchess jumped to her feet and took Christopher's arm. She sailed with him imperiously past the general and past Sylvia. She was saying that that was just what she would have expected of a milor Anglais… Avec un spleen tel que vous l'avez!

Christopher, in short, had told the duchess that as his family owned almost the largest stretch of hot-house coal-burning land in England and her family the largest stretch of hothouses in the sister-country of France, what could they do better than make an alliance? He would instruct his brother's manager to see that the duchess was supplied for the duration of hostilities and as long after as she pleased with all the coal needed for her glass at the pithead prices of the Middlesbrough-Cleveland district as the prices were on the 3rd of August, nineteen fourteen… He repeated: “The pit-head price… livrable au prix de l'houillemaigre dans l'enceinte des puits de ma campagne. ”… Much to the satisfaction of the duchess, who knew all about prices… A triumph for Christopher was at that moment so exactly what Sylvia thought she did not want that she decided to tell the general that Christopher was a Socialist. That might well take him down a peg or two in the general's esteem… for the general's arm-patting admiration for Tietjens, the man who did not argue but acted over the price of coal, was as much as she could bear… But, thinking it over in the smoking-room after dinner, by which time she was a good deal more aware of what she did want, she was not so certain that she had done what she wanted… Indeed, even in the octagonal room during the economical festivities that followed the signatures, she had been far from certain that she had not done almost exactly what she did not want…

It had begun with the general's exclaiming to her:

“You know your man's the most unaccountable fellow… He wears the damn-shabbiest uniform of any officer I ever have to talk to. He's said to be unholily hard up… I even heard he had a cheque sent back to the club… Then he goes and makes a princely gift like that—just to get Levin out of ten minutes' awkwardness… I wish to goodness I could understand the fellow… He's got a positive genius for getting all sorts of things out of the most beastly muddles… Why, he's even been useful to me… And then he's got a positive genius for getting into the most disgusting messes… You're too young to have heard of Dreyfus… But I always say that Christopher is a regular Dreyfus… I shouldn't be astonished if he didn't end by being drummed out of the army… which heaven forfend! ”

It had been then that Sylvia had said:

“Hasn't it ever occurred to you that Christopher was a Socialist? ”

For the first time in her life Sylvia saw her husband's godfather look grotesque… His jaw dropped down, his white hair became disarrayed, and he dropped his pretty cap with all the gold oakleaves and the scarlet. When he rose from picking it up his thin old face was purple and distorted. She wished she hadn't said it: she wished she hadn't said it. He exclaimed:

“Christopher! … A So…” He gasped as if he could not pronounce the word. He said: “Damn it all! … I've loved that boy… He's my only godson… His father was my best friend… I've watched over him… I'd have married his mother if she would have had me… Damn it all, he's down in my will as residuary legatee after a few small things left to my sister and my collection of horns to the regiment I commanded…”

Sylvia—they were sitting on the sofa the duchess had left—patted him on the forearm and said:

“But general… godfather…”

“It explains everything, ” he said with a mortification that was painful. His white moustache drooped and trembled. “And what makes it all the worse—he's never had the courage to tell me his opinions. ” He stopped, snorted and exclaimed: “By God, I will have him drummed out of the service… By God, I will. I can do that much…”

His grief so shut him in on himself that she could say nothing to him…

“You tell me he seduced the little Wannop girl… The last person in the world he should have seduced… Ain't there millions of other women? … He got you sold up, didn't he? … Along with keeping a girl in a tobacco-shop… By jove, I almost lent him… offered to lend him money on that occasion… You can forgive a young man for going wrong with women… We all do… We've all set up girls in tobacco-shops in our time… But, damn it all, if the fellow's a Socialist it puts a different complexion… I could forgive him even for the little Wannop girl, if he wasn't… But… Good God, isn't it just the thing that a dirty-minded Socialist would do? … To seduce the daughter of his father's oldest friend, next to me… Or perhaps Wannop was an older friend than me…”

He had calmed himself a little—and he was not such a fool. He looked at her now with a certain keenness in his blue eyes that showed no sign of age. He said:

“See here, Sylvia… You aren't on terms with Christopher for all the good game you put up here this afternoon… I shall have to go into this. It's a serious charge to bring against one of His Majesty's officers… Women do say things against their husbands when they are not on good terms with them…” He went on to say that he did not say she wasn't justified. If Christopher had seduced the little Wannop girl it was enough to make her wish to harm him. Had always found her the soul of honour, straight as a die, straight as she rode to hounds. And if she wished to nag against her husband, even if in little things it wasn't quite the truth, she was perhaps within her rights as a woman. She had said, for instance, that Tietjens had taken two pairs of her best sheets. Well, his own sister, her friend, raised Cain if he took anything out of the house they lived in. She had made an atrocious row because he had taken his own shaving-glass out of his own bedroom at Mounts-by. Women liked to have sets of things. Perhaps she, Sylvia, had sets of pairs of sheets. His sister had linen sheets with the date of the battle of Waterloo on them… Naturally you would not want a set spoiled… But this was another matter. He ended up very seriously:

“I have not got time to go into this now… I ought not to be another minute away from my office. These are very serious days…” He broke off to utter against the Prime Minister and the Cabinet at home a series of violent imprecations. He went on:

“But this will have to be gone into… It's heart-breaking that my time should be taken up by matters like this in my own family… But these fellows aim at sapping the heart of the army… They say they distribute thousands of pamphlets recommending the rank and file to shoot their officers and go over to the Germans… Do you seriously mean that Christopher belongs to an organization? What is it you are going on? What evidence have you? …”

She said:

“Only that he is heir to one of the biggest fortunes in England, for a commoner, and he refuses to touch a penny… His brother Mark tells me Christopher could have… Oh, a fabulous sum a year… But he has made over Groby to me…”

The general nodded his head as if he were ticking off ideas.

“Of course, refusing property is a sign of being one of these fellows. By jove, I must go… But as for his not going to live at Groby: if he is setting up house with Miss Wannop… Well, he could not flaunt her in the face of the country… And, of course, those sheets! … As you put it it looked as if he'd beggared himself with his dissipations… But of course, if he is refusing money from Mark, it's another matter… Mark would make up a couple of hundred dozen pairs of sheets without turning a hair… Of course there are the extraordinary things Christopher says… I've often heard you complain of the immoral way he looks at the serious affairs of life… You said he once talked of lethal-chambering unfit children. ”

He exclaimed:

“I must go. There's Thurston looking at me… But what then is it that Christopher has said? … Hang it all: what is at the bottom of that fellow's mind? …”

“He desires, ” Sylvia said, and she had no idea when she said it, “to model himself upon our Lord…”

The general leant back in the sofa. He said almost indulgently:

“Who's that… our Lord? ”

Sylvia said:

“Upon our Lord Jesus Christ…”

He sprang to his feet as if she had stabbed him with a hatpin.

“Our…” he exclaimed. “Good God! … I always knew he had a screw loose… But…” He said briskly: “Give all his goods to the poor! … But He wasn't a… Not a Socialist! What was it He said: Render unto Caesar… It wouldn't be necessary to drum Him out of the Army…” He said: “Good Lord! … Good Lord! … Of course his poor dear mother was a little… But, hang it! … The Wannop girl! …” Extreme discomfort overcame him… Tietjens was half-way across from the inner room, coming towards them.

He said:

“Major Thurston is looking for you, sir. Very urgently…” The general regarded him as if he had been the unicorn of the royal arms, come alive. He exclaimed:

“Major Thurston! … Yes! Yes! …” and, Tietjens saying to him:

“I wanted to ask you, sir…” he pushed Tietjens away as if he dreaded an assault and went off with short, agitated steps.

So sitting there, in the smoking-lounge of the hotel which was cram-jam full of officers, and no doubt perfectly respectable, but over-giggling women—the sort of place and environment which she had certainly never expected to be called upon to sit in; and waiting for the return of Tietjens and the ex-sergeant-major—who again was certainly not the sort of person that she had ever expected to be asked to wait for, though for long years she had put up with Tietjens' proté gé, the odious Sir Vincent Macmaster, at all sorts of meals and all sorts of places… but of course that was only Christopher's rights… to have in his own house, which, in the circumstances, wasn't morally hers, any snuffling, nervous, walrus-moustached or orientally obsequious proté gé that he chose to patronize… And she quite believed that Tietjens, when he had invited the sergeant-major to celebrate his commission with himself at dinner, hadn't expected to dine with her… It was the sort of obtuseness of which he was disconcertingly capable, though at other times he was much more disconcertingly capable of reading your thoughts to the last hairsbreadth… And, as a matter of fact, she objected much less to dining with the absolute lower classes than with merely snuffly little official critics like Macmaster, and the sergeant-major had served her turn very well when it had come to flaying the hide off Christopher… So, sitting there, she made a new pact, this time with Father Consett in heaven…

Father Consett was very much in her mind, for she was very much in the midst of the British military authorities who had hanged him… She had never seemed before to be so in the midst of these negligible, odious, unpresentable, horse-laughing schoolboys. It antagonized her, and it was a weight upon her, for hitherto she had completely ignored them: in this place they seemed to have a coherence, a mass… almost a life… They rushed in and out of rooms occupied, as incomprehensibly, as unpresentably, with things like boots, washing, vaccination certificates… Even with old tins! … A man with prematurely white hair and a pasty face, with a tunic that bulged both above and below his belt, would walk into the drawing-room of a lady who superintended all the acid-drop and cigarette stalls of that city and remark to a thin-haired, deaf man with an amazingly red nose—a nose that had a perfectly definite purple and scarlet diagonal demarcation running from the bridge to the upper side of the nostrils—that he had got his old tins off his hands at last. He would have to repeat it in a shout because the red-nosed man, his head hanging down, would have heard nothing at all. The deaf man would say Humph! Humph! Snuffle. The woman giving the tea—a Mrs Hemmerdine, of Tarbolton, whom you might have met at home, would be saying that at last she had got twelve reams of notepaper with forget-me-nots in the top corners when the deaf-faced man would begin, gruffly and uninterruptedly, a monologue on his urgent need for twenty thousand tons of sawdust for the new slow-burning stoves in the men's huts…

It was undeniably like something moving… All these things going in one direction… A disagreeable force set in motion by gawky schoolboys—but schoolboys of the Sixth Form, sinister, hobbledehoy, waiting in the corners of playgrounds to torture someone, weak and unfortunate… In one or other corner of their world-wide playground they had come upon Father Consett and hanged him. No doubt they tortured him first. And, if he made an offering of his sufferings, then and there to Heaven, no doubt he was already in paradise… Or, if he was not yet in heaven, certain of these souls in purgatory were yet listened to in the midst of their torments…

So she said:

“Blessed and martyred father, I know that you loved Christopher and wish to save him from trouble. I will make this pact with you. Since I have been in this room I have kept my eyes in the boat—almost in my lap. I will agree to leave off torturing Christopher and I will go into retreat in a convent of Ursuline Dames Nobles—for I can't stand the nuns of that other convent—for the rest of my life… And I know that will please you, too, for you were always anxious for the good of my soul…” She was going to do that if when she raised her eyes and really looked round the room she saw in it one man that looked presentable. She did not ask that he should more than look presentable, for she wanted nothing to do with the creature. He was to be a sign: not a prey!

She explained to the dead priest that she could not go all the world over to see if it contained a presentable man, but she could not bear to be in a convent for ever, and have the thought that there wasn't, for other women, one presentable man in the world… For Christopher would be no good to them. He would be mooning for ever over the Wannop girl. Or her memory. That was all one… He was content with LOVE… If he knew that the Wannop girl was loving him in Bedford Park, and he in the Khyber States with the Himalayas between them, he would be quite content… That would be correct in its way, but not very helpful for other women… Besides, if he were the only presentable man in the world, half the women would be in love with him… And that would be disastrous, because he was no more responsive than a bullock in a fatting pen.

“So, father, ” she said, “work a miracle… It's not very much of a little miracle… Even if a presentable man doesn't exist you could put him there… I'll give you ten minutes before I look…”

She thought it was pretty sporting of her, for, she said to herself, she was perfectly in earnest. If in that long, dim, green-lamp-shaded, and of course be-palm-leaved, badly-proportioned, glazed, ignoble public room, there appeared one decentish man, as decentish men went before this beanfeast began, she would go into retreat for the rest of her life…

She fell into a sort of dim trance after she had looked at her watch. Often she went into these dim trances… ever since she had been a girl at school with Father Consett for her spiritual adviser! … She seemed to be aware of the father moving about the room, lifting up a book and putting it down… Her ghostly friend! … Goodness, he was unpresentable enough, with his broad, open face that always looked dirtyish, his great dark eyes, and his great mouth… But a saint and a martyr… She felt him there… What had they murdered him for? Hanged at the word of a half-mad, half-drunk subaltern, because he had heard the confession of some of the rebels the night before they were taken… He was over in the far corner of the room… She heard him say: they had not understood, the men that had hanged him. That is what you would say, father… Have mercy on them, for they know not what they do…

Then have mercy on me, for half the time I don't know what I'm doing! … It was like a spell you put on me. At Lobscheid. Where my mother was, when I came back from that place without my clothes… You said, didn't you, to mother, but she told me afterwards: The real hell for that poor boy, meaning Christopher, will come when he falls in love with some young girl—as, mark me, he will… For she, meaning me, will tear the world down to get at him… And when mother said she was certain I would never do anything vulgar you obstinately did not agree… You knew me…

She tried to rouse herself and said: He knew me… Damn it he knew me! … What's vulgarity to me, Sylvia Tietjens, born Satterthwaite? I do what I want and that's good enough for anyone. Except a priest. Vulgarity! I wonder mother could be so obtuse. If I am vulgar I'm vulgar with a purpose. Then it's not vulgarity. It may be vice. Or viciousness… But if you commit a mortal sin with your eyes open it's not vulgarity… You chance hell fire for ever… Good enough!

The weariness sank over her again and the sense of the father's presence… She was back again in Lobscheid, thirty-six hours free of Perowne with the father and her mother in the dim sitting-room, all antlers, candle-lit, with the father's shadow waving over the pitchpine walls and ceilings… It was a bewitched place, in the deep forest of Germany. The father himself said it was the last place in Europe to be Christianized. Or perhaps it was never Christianized… That was perhaps why those people, the Germans, coming from those deep, devil-infested woods, did all these wickednesses. Or maybe they were not wicked… One would never know properly… But maybe the father had put a spell on her… His words had never been out of her mind, much… At the back of her brain, as the saying was…

Some man drifted near her and said:

“How do you do, Mrs Tietjens? Who would have thought of seeing you here? ”

She answered:

“I have to look after Christopher now and then. ” He remained hanging over her with a schoolboy grin for a minute, then he drifted away as an object sinks into deep water… Father Consett again hovered near her. She exclaimed:

“But the real point is, father… Is it sporting? … Sporting or whatever it is? ” And Father Consett breathed: “Ah! …” with his terrible power of arousing doubts… She said:

“When I saw Christopher… Last night? … Yes, it was last night… Turning back to go up that hill… And I had been talking about him to a lot of grinning private soldiers… To madden him… You mustn't make scenes before the servants… A heavy man, tired… come down the hill and lumbering up again… There was a searchlight turned on him just as he turned… I remembered the white bulldog I thrashed on the night before it died… A tired, silent beast… with a fat white behind… Tired out… You couldn't see its tail because it was turned down, the stump… A great, silent beast… The vet said it had been poisoned with red lead by burglars… It's beastly to die of red lead… It eats up the liver… And you think you're getting better for a fortnight. And you're always cold… freezing in the blood-vessels… And the poor beast had left its kennel to try and be let in to the fire… And I found it at the door when I came in from a dance without Christopher… And got the rhinoceros whip and lashed into it… There's a pleasure in lashing into a naked white beast… Obese and silent… Like Christopher… I thought Christopher might… That night… It went through my head… It hung down its head… A great head, room for a whole British encyclopaedia of mis-information, as Christopher used to put it… It said: 'What a hope! '… As I hope to be saved, though I never shall be, the dog said: 'What a hope! '… Snow-white in quite black bushes… And it went under a bush… They found it dead there in the morning… You can't imagine what it looked like, with its head over its shoulder, as it looked back and said: What a hope to me… Under a dark bush. An eu… eu… euonymus, isn't it? … In thirty degrees of frost with all the blood-vessels exposed on the naked surface of the skin… It's the seventh circle of hell, isn't it? the frozen one… The last stud-white bulldog of that breed… As Christopher is the last stud-white hope of the Groby Tory breed… Modelling himself on our Lord… But our Lord was never married. He never touched on topics of sex. Good for Him…”

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