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When she hugged me I could smell her perfume and feel the press of her firm little breasts. I kissed her cheek; she kissed me high up on the jaw, making a smack in my ear that I felt all the way down my back. “Say things are going to be better now, ” she whispered, still holding me.

“Lots better now, ” I said, and she hugged me again, tight. Then she stepped away “You better have brought plenty food, big boy, because we plenty hungry womens. Right, Kyra? ”

“I taggled my own quartermack, ” Ki said, then leaned back on her elbows, giggling deliciously at the bright and hazy sky. “Come on, ” I said, and grabbed her by the middle I toted her that way to a nearby picnic table, Ki kicking her legs and waving her arms and laughing I set her down on the bench; she slid off it and beneath the table, boneless as an eel and still laughing ’? dl right, Kyra Elizabeth, ” Mattie said. “Sit up and show the other side”

“Good girl, good girl, ” she said, clambering up beside me. “That’s the other side to me, Mike”

“I’m sure, ” I said. Inside the bag there were Big Macs and fries for Mattie and me. For Ki there was a colorful box upon which Ronald Mcdonald and his unindicted co-conspirators capered “Mattie, I got a Happy Meal! Mike got me a Happy Meal! They have toys! ”

“Well see what yours is. ” Kyra opened the box, poked around, then smiled It lit up her whole face She brought out something that I at first thought was a big dust-ball For one horrible second I was back in my dream, the one of Jo under the bed with the book over her face Give me that, she had snarled It’s my dust-catcher. And something else, too—some other association, perhaps from some other dream I couldn’t get hold of it. “Mike? ” Mattie asked Curiosity in her voice, and maybe borderline concern. “It’s a doggy! ” Ki said “I won a doggy in my Happy Meal! ” Yes; of course A dog. A little stuffed dog. And it was gray, not black. . . although why I’d care about the color either way I didn’t know.

“That’s a pretty good prize, ” I said, taking it. It was soft, which was good, and it was gray, which was better Being gray made it all right, somehow Crazy but true I handed it back to her and smiled. “What’s his name? ” Ki asked, jumping the little dog back and forth across her Happy Meal box. “What doggy’s name, Mike? ” And, without thinking, I said, “Strickland. ”

I thought she’d look puzzled, but she didn’t. She looked delighted.

“Stricken! ” she said, bouncing the dog back and forth in ever-higher leaps over the box. “Stricken! Stricken! My dog Stricken! ”

“Who’s this guy Strickland? ” Mattie asked, smiling a little. She had begun to unwrap her hamburger.

’5 character in a book I read once, ” I said, watching Ki play with the little puffball dog. “No one real. ”

“My grampa died, ” she said five minutes later.

We were still at the picnic table but the food was mostly gone.

Strick-land the stuffed puffball had been set to guard the remaining french fries. I had been scanning the ebb and flow of people, wondering who was here from the TR observing our tryst and simply burning to carry the news back home. I saw no one I knew, but that didn’t mean a whole tot, considering how long I’d been away from this part of the world.

Mattie put down her burger and looked at Ki with some anxiety, but I thought the kid was okay—she had been giving news, not expressing grief.

“I know he did, ” I said.

“Grampa was awful old. ” Ki pinched a couple of french fries between her pudgy little fingers. They rose to her mouth, then gloop, all gone.

“He’s with Lord Jesus now. We had all about Lord Jesus in V. B. S. ”

I3s, Ki, I thought, right now Grampy’s probably teaching Lord Jesus how to use Pixel Easel and asking if there might be a whore handy.

“Lord Jesus walked on water and also changed the wine into macaroni. ”

“Yes, something like that, ” I said. “It’s sad when people die, isn’t it? ”

“It would be sad if Mattie died, and it would be sad if you died, but Grampy was old. ” She said it as though I hadn’t quite grasped this con cept the first time. “In heaven he’ll get all fixed up. ”

“That’s a good way to look at it, hon, ” I said.

Mattie did maintenance on Ki’s drooping barrettes, working carefully and with a kind of absent love. I thought she glowed in the summer light, her skin in smooth, tanned contrast to the white dress she had probably bought at one of the discount stores, and I understood that I loved her.

Maybe that was all right.

“I miss the white nana, though, ” Ki said, and this time she did look sad. She picked up the stuffed dog, tried to feed him a french fry, then put him down again. Her small, pretty face looked pensive now, and I could see a whisper of her grandfather in it. It was far back but it was there, perceptible, another ghost. “Mom says white nana went back to California with Grampy’s early remains. ”

“Earthly remains, Ki-bird, ” Mattie said. “That means his body. ”

“Will white nana come back and see me, Mike? ”

“I don’t know. ”

“We had a game. It was all rhymes. ” She looked more pensive than ever.

“Your mom told me about that game, ” I said.

“She won’t be back, ” Ki said, answering her own question. One very large tear rolled down her right cheek. She picked up “Stricken, ” stood him on his back legs for a second, then put him back on guard-duty. Mattie slipped an arm around her, but Ki didn’t seem to notice. “White nana didn’t really like me. She was just pretending to like me. That was her job. ”

Mattie and I exchanged a glance.

“What makes you say that? ” I asked.

“Don’t know, ” Ki said. Over by where the kid was playing the guitar, a juggler in whiteface had started up, working with half a dozen colored balls. Kyra brightened a little. “Mommy-bommy, may I go watch that funny white man? ”

“Are you done eating? ”

“Yeah, I’m full. ”

“Thank Mike. ”

“Don’t taggle yer own quartermack, ” she said, then laughed kindly to show she was just pulling my leg. “Thanks, Mike. ”

“Not a problem, ” I said, and then, because that sounded a little old-fashioned: “Kickin. ”

“You can go as far as that tree, but no farther, ” Mattie said. “And you know why. ”

“So you can see me. I will. ”

She grabbed Strickland and started to run off, then stopped and looked over her shoulder at me. “I guess it was the fridgeafator people, ” she said, then corrected herself very carefully and seriously.

“The ree fridge-a-rator people. ” My heart took a hard double beat in my chest. “It was the refrigerator people what, Ki? ” I asked.

“That said white nana didn’t really like me. ” Then she ran off toward the juggler, oblivious to the heat.

Mattie watched her go, then turned back to me. “I haven’t talked to anybody about Ki’s fridgeafator people. Neither has she, until now. Not that there are any real people, but the letters seem to move around by themselves. It’s like a Ouija board. ”

“Do they spell things? ”

For a long time she said nothing. Then she nodded. “Not always, but sometimes. ” Another pause. “Most times, actually. Ki calls it mail from the people in the refrigerator. ” She smiled, but her eyes were a little scared. “Are they special magnetic letters, do you think? Or have we got a poltergeist working the lakefront? ”

“I don’t know. I’m sorry I brought them, if they’re a problem. ”

“Don’t be silly. You gave them to her, and you’re a tremendously big deal to her right now. She talks about you all the time. She was much more interested in picking out something pretty to wear for you tonight than she was in her grandfather’s death. I was supposed to wear something pretty, too, Kyra insisted. She’s not that way about people, usually—she takes them when they’re there and leaves them when they’re gone. That’s not such a bad way for a little girl to grow up, I sometimes think. ”

“You both dressed pretty, ” I said. “That much I’m sure of. ”

“Thanks. ” She looked fondly at Ki, who stood by the tree watching the juggler. He had put his rubber balls aside and moved on to Indian clubs. Then she looked back at me. “Are we done eating? ”

I nodded, and Mattie began to pick up the trash and stuff it back into the take-out bag. I helped, and when our fingers touched, she gripped my hand and squeezed. “Thank you, ” she said. “For everything you’ve done. Thank you so damn much. ”

I squeezed back, then let go.

“You know, ” she said, “it’s crossed my mind that Kyra’s moving the letters around herself. Mentally. ”

“Telekinesis? ”

“I guess that’s the technical term. Only Ki can’t spell much more than ’dog’ and ’cat. ’”

“What’s showing up on the fridge? ”

“Names, mostly. Once it was yours. Once it was your wife’s. ”

“jo? ”

“The whole thing—JOHANNA. And NANA. Rogette, I presume. JARED shows up sometimes, and BRIDGET. Once there was KITO. ” She spelled it.

“Kito, ” I said, and thought: Kyra, Kia, Kito. What is this? “A boy’s name, do you think? ”

“I know it is. It’s Swahili, and means precious child. I looked it up in my baby-name book. ” She glanced toward her own precious child as we walked across the grass to the nearest trash barrel.

“Any others that you can remember? ”

She thought. “G has showed up a couple of times. And once there was CARLA. You understand that Ki can’t even read these names as a rule, don’t you? She has to ask me what they say. ”

“Has it occurred to you that Kyra might be copying them out of a book or a magazine? That she’s learning to write using the magnetic letters on the fridge instead of paper and pencil? ”

“I suppose that’s possible. . . ” She didn’t look as if she believed it, though. Not surprising. I didn’t believe it myself.

“I mean, you’ve never actually seen the letters moving around by themselves on the front of the fridge, have you? ” I hoped I sounded as unconcerned asking this question as I wanted to. She laughed a bit nervously. “God, no! ”

“Anything else? ”

“Sometimes the fridgeafator people leave messages like HI and BYE and GOOD GIRL. There was one yesterday that I wrote down to show you. Kyra asked me to. It’s really weird. ”

“What is it? ”

“I’d rather show you, but I left it in the glove compartment of the Scout. Remind me when we go. ”

Yes. I would.

“This is some spooky shit, segor, ” she said. “Like the writing in the flour that time. ” I thought about telling her I had my own fridgeafator people, then didn’t. She had enough to worry about without that. . . or so I told myself. We stood side-by-side on the grass, watching Ki watch the juggler. “Did you call John? ” I asked. “You bet. ”

“His reaction? ”

She turned to me, laughing with her eyes. “He actually sang a verse of “Ding Dong, the Witch Is Dead. ’”

“Wrong sex, right sentiment. ” She nodded, her eyes going back to Kyra. I thought again how beautiful she looked, her body slim in the white dress, her features clean and perfectly made. “Was he pissed at me inviting myself to lunch? ” I asked.

“Nope, he loved the idea of having a party. ” A party. He loved the idea.

I began to feel rather small. “He even suggested we invite your lawyer from last Friday. Mr. Bis-sonette? Plus the private detective John hired on Mr. Bissonette’s recommendation. Is that okay with you? ”

“Fine. How about you, Mattie? Doing okay? ”

“Doing okay, ” she agreed, turning to me.

“I did have several more calls than usual today. I’m suddenly quite popular. ”

“Uh-oh. ”

“Most were hangups, but one gentleman took time enough to call me a cunt, and there was a lady with a very strong Yankee accent who said, “Theah, you bitch, you’ve killed him. Aaa you satisfied? ’ She hung up before I could tell her yes, very satisfied, thanks. ” But Mattie didn’t look satisfied; she looked unhappy and guilty, as if she had literally wished him dead. “I’m sorry. ”

“It’s okay. Really. Kyra and I have been alone for a long time, and I’ve been scared for most of it. Now I’ve made a couple of friends. If a few anonymous phone calls are the price I have to pay, I’ll pay it. ”

She was very close, looking up at me, and I couldn’t stop myself. I put the blame on summer, her perfume, and four years without a woman. In that order, i slipped my arms around her waist, and remember perfectly the texture of her dress beneath my hands; the slight pucker at the back where the zipper hid in its sleeve. I remember the sensation of the cloth moving against the bare skin beneath. Then I was kissing her, very gently but very thoroughly—anything worth doing is worth doing right—and she was kissing me back in exactly the same spirit, her mouth curious but not afraid. Her lips were warm and smooth and held some faint sweet taste. Peaches, I think. We stopped at the same time and pulled back a little from each other. Her hands were still on my shoulders. Mine were on the sides of her waist, just above her hips. Her face was composed enough, but her eyes were more brilliant than ever, and there were slants of color in her cheeks, rising along the cheekbones. “Oh boy, ” she said. “I really wanted that. Ever since Ki tackled you and you picked her up I’ve wanted ir. ”

“John wouldn’t think much of us kissing in public, ” I said. My voice wasn’t quite even, and my heart was racing. Seven seconds, one kiss, and every system in my body was red-lining. “In fact, John wouldn’t think much of us kissing at all. He fancies you, you know. ”

“I know, but I fancy you. ” She turned to check on Ki, who was still standing obediently by the tree, watching the juggler. Who might be watching us? Someone who had come over from the TR on a hot summer evening to get ice cream at Frank’s Tas-T-Freeze and enjoy a little music and society on the common? Someone who traded for fresh vegetables and fresh gossip at the Lakeview General? A regular at the All-Purpose Garage? This was insanity, and it stayed insanity no matter how you cut it. I dropped my hands from her waist. “Mattie, they could put our picture next to ’indiscreet’ in the dictionary. ” She took her hands offmy shoulders and stepped back a pace, but her brilliant eyes never left mine. “I know that. I’m young but not entirely stupid. ”

“I didn’t mean—” She held up a hand to stop me. “Ki goes to bed around nine—she can’t seem to sleep until it’s mostly dark. I stay up later. Come and visit me, if you want to. You can park around back. ” She smiled a little. It was a sweet smile; it was also incredibly sexy. “Once the moon’s down, that’s an area of discretion. ”

“Mattie, you’re young enough to be my daughter. ”

“Maybe, but I’m not. And sometimes people can be too discreet for their own good. ”

My body knew so emphatically what it wanted. If we had been in her trailer at that moment it would have been no contest. It was almost no contest anyway. Then something recurred to me, something I’d thought about Devore’s ancestors and my own: the generations didn’t match up.

Wasn’t the same thing true here? And I don’t believe that people automatically have a right to what they want, no matter how badly they want it. Not every thirst should be slaked. Some things are just wrong—I guess that’s what I’m trying to say. But I wasn’t sure this was one of them, and I wanted her, all right. So much. I kept thinking about how her dress had slid when I put my arms around her waist, the warm feel of her skin just beneath. And no, she wasn’t my daughter.

“You said your thanks, ” I told her in a dry voice. “And that’s enough.

Really. ”

“You think this is gratitude? ” She voiced a low, tense laugh. “You’re forty, Mike, not eighty. You’re not Harrison Ford, but you’re a good-looking man. Talented and interesting, too. And I like you such an awful lot. I want you to be with me. Do you want me to say please? Fine.

Please be with me. ”

Yes, this was about more than gratitude—I suppose I’d known that even when I was using the word. I’d known she was wearing white shorts and a halter top when she called on the phone the day I went back to work. Had she also known what I was wearing? Had she dreamed she was in bed with me, the two of us screwing our brains out while the party lights shone and Sara Tidwell played her version of the white nana rhyming game, all that crazy Manderley-sanderley-canderley stuff?. Had Mattie dreamed of telling me to do what she wanted?

And there were the fridgeafator people. They were another kind of sharing, an even spookier kind. I hadn’t quite had nerve enough to tell Mattie about mine, but she might know anyway. Down low in her mind. Down below in her mind, where the blue-collar guys moved around in the zone.

Her guys and my guys, all part of the same strange labor union. And maybe it wasn’t an issue of morality per se at all. Some thing about it—about us—just felt dangerous.

And oh so attractive.

“I need time to think, ” I said.

“This isn’t about what you think. What do youj%/for me? ”

“So much it scares me. ”

Before I could say anything else, my ears caught a familiar series of chord-changes. I turned toward the kid with the guitar. He had been working through a repertoire of early Dylan, but now he swung into something chuggy and up-tempo, something that made you want to grin and pat your hands together.

“Do you want to go fishin here in my fishin hole?

Said do you want to fish some, honey, here in my fishin hole?

You want to fish in my pond, baby, you better have a big long pole. ”

“Fishin Blues. ” Written by Sara Tidwell, originally performed by Sara and the Red-Top Boys, covered by everyone from Ma Rainey to the Lovin’

Spoonful. The raunchy ones had been her specialty, double-entendre so thin you could read a newspaper through it. . . although reading hadn’t been Sara’s main interest, judging by her lyrics.

Before the kid could go on to the next verse, something about how you got to wiggle when you wobble and get that big one way down deep, The Castle Rockers ran off a brass flourish that said “Shut up, everybody, we’re comin atcha. ” The kid quit playing his guitar; the juggler began catching his Indian clubs and dropping them swiftly onto the grass in a line. The Rockers launched themselves into an extremely evil Sousa march, music to commit serial murders by, and Kyra came running back to us.

“The jugster’s done. Will you tell me the story, Mike? Hansel and Panzel? ”

“It’s Hansel and Gretel, ” I said, “and I’ll be happy to. But let’s go where it’s a little quieter, okay? The band is giving me a headache. ”

“Music hurt your headie? ” ’5 little bit. ”

“We’ll go by Mattie’s car, then. ”

“Good thought. ” Kyra ran ahead to stake out a bench on the edge of the common. Mattie gave me a long warm look, then her hand. I took it. Our fingers folded together as if they had been doing it for years. I thought, I’d like it to be slow, both of us hardly moving at all. At first, anyway. And would I bring my nicest, longest pole? I think you could count on that. And then, afterward, we’d talk.

Maybe until we could see the furniture in the first early light. When you’re in bed with someone you love, particularly for the first time, five o’clock seems almost holy. “You need a vacation from your own thoughts, ” Mattie said. “I bet most writers do from time to time. ”

“That’s probably true. ”

“I wish we were home, ” she said, and I couldn’t tell if her fierceness was real or pretend. “I’d kiss you until this whole conversation became irrelevant. And if there were second thoughts, at least you’d be having them in my bed. ” I turned my face into the red light of the westering sun. “Here or there, at this hour Ki would still be up. ”

“True, ” she said, sounding uncharacteristically glum. “True. ”

Kyra reached a bench near the sign reading TOWN COMMON PARKING and climbed up on it, holding the little stuffed dog from Mickey D’s in one hand. I tried to pull my hand away as we approached her and Mat-tie held it firm. “It’s all right, Mike. At V. B. S. they hold hands with their friends everywhere they go. It’s big people who make it into a big deal. ” She stopped, looked at me. “I want you to know something. Maybe it won’t matter to you, but it does to me. There wasn’t anyone before Lance and no one after. If you come to me, you’ll be my second. I’m not going to talk with you about this again, either. Saying please is all right, but I won’t beg. ”

“I don’t—”

“There’s a pot with tomato plants in it by the trailer steps.

I’ll leave a key under it. Don’t think. Just come. ”

“Not tonight, Mattie. I can’t. ”

“You can, ” she replied. “Hurry up, slowpokes! ” Kyra cried, bouncing on the bench. “He’s the slow one! ” Mattie called back, and poked me in the ribs. Then, in a much lower voice: “You are, too. ”

She unwound her hand from mine and ran toward her daughter, her brown legs scissoring below the hem of the white dress.

In my version of “Hansel and Gretel” the witch was named Depravia. Kyra stared at me with huge eyes when I got to the part where Depravia asks Hansel to poke out his finger so she can see how plump he’s getting. “Is it too scary? ” I asked. Ki shook her head emphatically. I glanced at Mattie to make sure. She nodded and waved a hand for me to go on, so I finished the story. Depravia went into the oven and Gretel found her secret stash of winning lottery tickets. The kids bought a Jet Ski and lived happily ever after on the eastern side of Dark Score Lake. By then The Castle Rockers were slaughtering Gershwin and sunset was nigh. I carried Kyra to Scoutie and strapped her in. I remembered the first time I’d helped put the kid into her car-seat, and the inadvertent press of Mattie’s breast. “I hope there isn’t a bad dream for you in that story, ” I said. Until I heard it coming out of my own mouth, I hadn’t realized how fundamentally awful that one is. “I won’t have bad dreams, ” Kyra said matter-of-factly. “The fridgeafator people will keep them away. ”

Then, carefully, reminding herself: “Ree-fridge-a-rator. ” She turned to Mattie. “Show him the crosspatch, Mommy-bommy. ”

“Crossword. But thanks, I would’ve forgotten. ” She thumbed open the glove compartment and took out a folded sheet of paper. “It was on the fridge this morning. I copied it down because Ki said you’d know what it meant. She said you do crossword puzzles. Well, she said crosspatches, but I got the idea. ”

Had I told Kyra that I did crosswords? Almost certainly not. Did it surprise me that she knew? Not at all. I took the sheet of paper, unfolded it, and looked at what was printed there: d go W “Is it a crosspatch puzzle, Mike? ” Kyra asked.

“I guess so—a very simple one. But if it means something, I don’t know what it is. May I keep this? ”

“Yes, ” Mattie said.

I walked her around to the driver’s side of the Scout, reaching for her hand again as we went. “Just give me a little time. I know that’s supposed to be the girl’s line, but—”

“Take the time, ” she said. “Just don’t take too much. ”

I didn’t want to take any, which was just the problem. The sex would be great, I knew that. But after?

There might be an after, though. I knew it and she did, too. With Mattie, “after” was a real possibility. The idea was a little scary, a little wonderful.

I kissed the corner of her mouth. She laughed and grabbed me by the earlobe. “You can do better, ” she said, then looked at Ki, who was sitting in her car-seat and gazing at us interestedly. “But I’ll let you offthis time. ”

“Kiss Ki! ” Kyra called, holding out her arms, so I went around and kissed Ki. Driving home, wearing my dark glasses to cut the glare of the setting sun, it occurred to me that maybe I could be Kyra Devore’s father. That seemed almost as attractive to me as going to bed with her mother, which was a measure of how deep I was in. And going deeper, maybe.

Deeper still.

Sara Laughs seemed very empty after having Mattie in my arms—a sleeping head without dreams. I checked the letters on the fridge, saw nothing there but the normal scatter, and got a beer. I went out on the deck to drink it while I watched the last of the sunset. I tried to think about the refrigerator people and crosspatches that had appeared on both refrigerators: “go down nineteen” on Lane Forty-two and “go down ninety-two” on Wasp Hill Road. Different vectors from the land to the lake? Different spots on The Street? Shit, who knew?

I tried to think about John Storrow and how unhappy he was apt to be if he found out there was—to quote Sara Laughs, who got to the line long before John Mellencamp—another mule kicking in Mattie Devore’s stall.

But mostly what I thought about was holding her for the first time, kissing her for the first time. No human instinct is more powerful than the sex-drive when it is fully aroused, and its awakening images are emotional tattoos that never leave us. For me, it was feeling the soft bare skin of her waist just beneath her dress. The slippery feel of the fabric. . .

I turned abruptly and hurried through the house to the north wing, almost running and shedding clothes as I went. I turned the shower on to full cold and stood under it for five minutes, shivering. When I got out I felt a little more like an actual human being and a little less like a twitching bundle of nerve endings. And as I toweled dry, something else recurred to me. At some point I had thought of Jo’s brother Frank, had thought that if anyone besides myself would be able to feel Jo’s presence in Sara Laughs, it would be him. I hadn’t gotten around to inviting him down yet, and now wasn’t sure I wanted to. I had come to feel oddly possessive, almost jealous, about what was happening here.

And yet if Jo had been writing something on the quiet, Frank might know.

Of course she hadn’t confided in him about the pregnancy, but- I looked at my watch. Quarter past nine. In the trailer near the intersection of Wasp Hill Road and Route 68, Kyra was probably already asleep. . . and her mother might already have put her extra key under the pot near the steps. I thought of her in the white dress, the swell of her hips just below my hands and the smell of her perfume, then pushed the images away. I couldn’t spend the whole night taking cold showers.

Quarter past nine was still early enough to call Frank Arlen. He picked up on the second ring, sounding both happy to hear from me and as if he’d gotten three or four cans further into the six-pack than I had so far done. We passed the usual pleasantries back and forth—most of my own almost entirely fictional, I was dismayed to find—and he mentioned that a famous neighbor of mine had kicked the bucket, according to the news. Had I met him? Yes, I said, remembering how Max Devote had run his wheelchair at me. Yes, I’d met him. Frank wanted to know what he was like. That was hard to say, I told him. Poor old guy was stuck in a wheelchair and suffering from emphysema. “Pretty frail, huh? ” Frank asked sympathetically. “Yeah, ” I said. “Listen, Frank, I called about Jo. I was out in her studio looking around, and I found my typewriter.

Since then I’ve kind of gotten the idea she was writing something. It might have started as a little piece about our house, then widened. The place is named after Sara Tidwell, you know. The blues singer. ” A long pause. Then Frank said, “I know. ” His voice sounded heavy, grave. “What else do you know, Frank? ”

“That she was scared. I think she found out something that scared her. I think that mostly because—” That was when the light finally broke. I probably should have known from Mattie’s description, would have known if I hadn’t been so upset. “You were down here with her, weren’t you? In July of 1994. You went to the softball game, then you went back up The Street to the house. ”

“How do you know that? ” he almost barked. “Someone saw you. A friend of mine. ” I was trying not to sound mad and not succeeding. I was mad, but it was a relieved anger, the kind you feel when your kid comes dragging into the house with a shamefaced grin just as you’re getting ready to call the cops. “I almost told you a day or two before we buried her. We were in that pub, do you remember? ” Jack’s Pub, right after Frank had beaten the funeral director down on the price of Jo’s coffin. Sure I remembered. I even remembered the look in his eyes when I’d told him Jo had been pregnant when she died. He must have felt the silence spinning out, because he came back sounding anxious. “Mike, I hope you didn’t get any—”

“What? Wrong ideas? I thought maybe she was having an affair, how’s that for a wrong idea? You can call that ignoble if you want, but I had my reasons. There was a lot she wasn’t telling me. What did she tell you? ”

“Next to nothing. ”

“Did you know she quit all her boards and committees? Quit and never said a word to me? ”

“No. ” I didn’t think he was lying. Why would he, at this late date? “Jesus, Mike, if I’d known that—”

“What happened the day you came down here? Tell me. ”

“I was at the printshop in Sanford. Jo called me from. . . I don’t remember, I think a rest area on the turnpike. ”

“Between Derry and the TR? ”

“Yeah. She was on her way to Sara Laughs and wanted me to meet her there. She told me to park in the driveway if I got there first, not to go in the house. . . which I could have; I know where you keep the spare key. ” Sure he did, in a Sucrets tin under the deck. I had shown him myself. “Did she say why she didn’t want you to go inside? ”

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